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February 10, 2011 / avarion

2 things.

Our lives will lead up to one of these 2 responses:

We say to God:” Your will be done. I will have everything to do with you.”
God says to us: ” your will be done. i will have nothing to do with you.”

The rest of life is just discovering which response we made.

EDIT: i admit i was inspired by C.S. Lewis’ quote:
There are two kinds of people: those who say to God, “Thy will be done,” and those to whom God says, “All right, then, have it your way”

December 26, 2010 / avarion

Tis the season to feel melancholy.

Melancholy. the aching darkness that drags you down and makes you wallow in it. i dont want to wallow in it yet i feel helpless. purposeless.

is it my laziness that makes me feel unfulfilled? or my damning religious pseudo scholar – wanna-earn-the-respect-of-others kinda brother who cant stand the sight of couples or even listen to songs without analyzing it critically. damn it all. i cant take living with a person like this. its unbearable to watch a movie with him let alone sit with him (he’ll try to preach to you things you already know and add stuff that he believes i.e. he thinks he’s a prophet). suck it up and grow up. freaking girlfriend broke up with you for A YEAR. GET OVER IT. The world wont hand everything to you on a silver platter, you have to WORK. So for my mental wellbeing’s sake SUCK IT UP AND MOVE ON. Know i still love you but you need to come the f*&^ down from your high chair and accept the fact that you are wrong. The sooner the better.

November 23, 2010 / avarion

God Versus Science.

GOD VERSUS SCIENCE (It’s a true story – worth reading all the way to the end)

‘Let me explain the problem science has with religion.’
The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand….

‘You believe in God, don’t you, son?’ ‘Yes sir,’ the student says.

Prof: ‘So you believe in God?’
Student: ‘Absolutely. ‘
Prof: ‘Is God good?’
Student: ‘Sure! God’s good.’
Prof: ‘Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?’
Student: ‘Yes’
Prof: ‘Are you good or evil?’
Student: ‘The Bible says I’m evil.’

The professor grins knowingly. ‘Aha! The Bible! He considers for a moment. ‘Here’s one for you. Let’s say there’s a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?’

Student: ‘Yes sir, I would.’
Prof: ‘So you’re good…!’
Student: ‘I wouldn’t say that…’

Prof: ‘But why not say that? You’d help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn’t.’

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. ‘He doesn’t, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good?

Prof: Can you answer that one?’

The student remains silent. ‘No, you can’t, can you?’ the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax. ‘Let’s start again, young fella. Is God good?’

‘Er..yes,’ the student says.

Prof: ‘Is Satan good?’ The student doesn’t hesitate on this one. ‘No.’
‘Then where does Satan come from?’ The student falters. ‘From God’

‘That’s right. God made Satan, didn’t he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in
this world?’

Student:: ‘Yes, sir.’

Prof: ‘Evil’s everywhere, isn’t it? And God did make everything, correct?’


Prof: ‘So who created evil?’ The professor continued, ‘If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.’

Again, the student has no answer.

Prof: ‘Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?’

The student squirms on his feet. ‘Yes.’

Prof: ‘So who created them?’

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

Prof: ‘Who created them?’

There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

Prof: ‘Tell me,’ he continues onto another student. ‘Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?’

The student’s voice betrays him and cracks. ‘Yes, professor, I do.’

The old man stops pacing. ‘Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?’

Student: ‘No sir. I’ve never seen Him.’ 

Prof: ‘Then tell us if you’ve ever heard your Jesus?’

Student: ‘No, sir, I have not..’

Prof: ‘Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?’

Student: ‘No, sir, I’m afraid I haven’t.’

Prof: ‘Yet you still believe in him?’ Student: ‘Yes’

Prof: ‘According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn’t exist… What do you say to that, son?’

‘Nothing,’ the student replies.. ‘I only have my faith.’

‘Yes, faith,’ the professor repeats. ‘And that is the problem science has
with God. There is no evidence, only faith.’

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own. ‘Professor, is there such thing as heat? ‘

Prof: ‘ Yes.

Student: ‘And is there such a thing as cold?’

Prof: ‘Yes, son, there’s cold too.’

Student: ‘No sir, there isn’t.’

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet.

The student begins to explain. ‘You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don’t have anything called ‘cold’. We can hit down to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise we
would be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy.

Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.’

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

Student: ‘What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?’

‘Yes,’ the professor replies without hesitation. ‘What is night if it
isn’t darkness?’

‘You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of
something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing
light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it’s
called darkness, isn’t it? That’s the meaning we use to define the word.
In reality, darkness isn’t. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?’

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be
a good semester. ‘So what point are you making, young man?’

‘Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to
start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.’

The professor’s face cannot hide his surprise this time. ‘Flawed? Can you explain how?’

‘You are working on the premise of duality,’ the student explains.. ‘You
argue that there is life and then there’s death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can’t even explain a thought.’ ‘It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.’ ‘Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?’

Prof: ‘If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do.’

Student: ‘Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?’

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes
where the argument is going.. A very good semester, indeed.

‘Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and
cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?’

The class is in uproar.. The student remains silent until the commotion
has subsided. ‘To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.’ The student looks around the room. ‘Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor’s brain?’ The class breaks out into laughter.

‘Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor’s brain, felt the professor’s brain, touched or smelt the professor’s brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir.’

‘So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures,

Now the room is silent.. The professor just stares at the student, his
face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man
answers. ‘I Guess you’ll have to take them on faith.’

‘Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with
life,’ the student continues.

Student: ‘Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?’

Now uncertain, the professor responds, ‘Of course, there is. We see it
Everyday. It is in the daily example of man’s inhumanity to man. It is in
The multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These
manifestations are nothing else but evil..’

To this the student replied, ‘Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does
not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like
darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God’s love present in his heart. It’s like the cold that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.’

The professor sat down.

If you read it all the way through and had a smile on your face when you finished, mail to your friends and family with the title ‘God vs. Science’

PS: The student was Albert Einstein.
Albert Einstein wrote a book titled ‘God vs. Science’ in 1921…

November 8, 2010 / avarion


Its just a Name we carry. That we take for granted. That we think about and then forget. But it- nay, He- will not stop reminding us what He has done for us. He will keep reminding us until we start purposefully and consciously remind ourselves. Until then nothing will change, you will do and regret and repeat the cycle over and over again. Until you realise. Until then, it is just a name.

How we live is a reflection of His Glory, our lives are an offering to Him, the sweet smelling aroma of love, peace, harmony, good cheer, and genuine love for each other. Yet we forget and all is lost in our pursuit of pleasures. Sigh, i am not writing this to judge, Lord knows i’m guilty of this as much as all of you.

I just want to point out a certain duality in which we the “New” generation of Christians live. Yes, we have a duality. You know what i mean. In church and out church personalities. In the “Holy” mood and out the “Holy” mood personality, when we feel good to act good and when we feel good to act bad. We have to reconcile these 2 personalities, either one lives and one dies, or we end up making a mockery of ourselves and the God we claim we serve. You know we only have one real path here, always the straight and narrow, which you signed up for the day you believed.

August 31, 2010 / avarion

I will move the rock.

I Will Move the Rock
by Cindy Lu

A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light and the Savior appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might.

This the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.

Seeing that the man was showing signs of discouragement, Satan decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the man’s mind such as: “You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn’t budged. Why kill yourself over this? You are never going to move it.”

Thus giving the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure, these thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man even more. “Why kill myself over this?” he thought. “I’ll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort, and that will be good enough.”

And that he planned to do until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord. “Lord,” he said, “I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?”

To this the Lord responded compassionately, “My friend, when I asked you to serve me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to me, with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewed and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, and your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven’t moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. This you have done.

“I, my friend, will now move the rock.”

At times when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what he wants, when actually what God wants is just simple obedience and faith in him…

By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but it is still God who moves the mountains.

God, You call us to obedience everyday. Sometimes, I want to see beyond obedience. I want to know why, how and when. Yet, it is usually long after the obedience that I begin to realize what Your plan was back then. So help me just be obedient for today. I am learning, Lord that by being obedient today, I am stronger for tomorrow. In Jesus’ Name, AMEN

Perhaps i have relied on myself so much that i have gotten arrogant and forgotten how much He has provided for me. sigh.

August 16, 2010 / avarion

Sometimes when the world isn’t “all as it should be”

TImes like these when im depressed. He calls me and reminds me the purpose of which i live for. I’ve been having this on my heart for sometime. We are all broken. Only when we realise that degree of that brokenness, then we come back to Him or we start searching for something more… and find that nothing less than Him will suffice.

Yes i just copy-pasted this from my tumblr. im kinda torn between these two blogs now. but i’ll write alot longer in this one. I digress.

Imma go do my quiet time now. lol.


July 19, 2010 / avarion


Piece by piece, part by part, put me back to how i used to be. how i ought to be. how You intended me to be when you shaped me lovingly with your hands. Oh Lord, bring me back.

I know i’ve been away for a long time. but i’m going to put alot more personal stuff on this blog since not much people know of it’s existence. heh.